Change.

Many people who know me know that I do not like change. I am a creature of habit and find comfort in routine. So when I do make a change in my life I need to feel very confident about the change and I need to know in my heart of hearts that it is the right choice.

I quit my job on Thursday. The stress of the decision had made me quite uneasy and ill-feeling for the days prior to my resignation. I've been with Crate and Barrel for 6 years. That company has had so much impact on my life, I am unable to quantify it's importance to me. When I had moved halfway across the county, while only knowing 1 person, Crate and Barrel was a place where I met some of the most wonderful people who have since become some of my most cherished friends. 2 years later when my heart was pulling me back towards home, Crate and Barrel moved me and my two kittys to Chicago to work in their corporate office. This company has been a big part of my life these past 6 years and it was very difficult to decide to leave them.

After giving notice on Thursday, I was overcome with waves of sadness and excitment. Sadness because I was closing a chapter on my life, by leaving this company. I remember distinctly sitting at a table at The Grove with Chad and James right before my interview with Melissa, the manager of Crate and Barrel. I needed a job in L.A. before I could move there and I had hopes this interview would go well. I remember stepping out of the store, after meeting with Melissa, and being so happy that they had offered me a job. Those steps out of the building were quite significant steps in my life because it meant I was strong enough to make a change from Iowa to California. It meant that I could try exploring a new city and a new part of the country. That job offer at Crate and Barrel allowed me the freedom to explore my own character and strength.

I was also overcome with excitement, after giving notice, because the new job I took sounds like a lot of fun. I'm working for a high-end furniture company, doing a similar job as what I did at Crate and Barrel, but this new company is located in downtown Chicago so I can finally be rid of my commute. 2 1/2 hours a day in my car, for 4 years straight, has been draining on my spirit. And my bank account. I'm glad this new job will be kinder to both.

My last day at Crate and Barrel is a week from Wednesday. I am excited for this change, even if I am also a bit nervous, and I am excited to see where this new chapter in my life leads me.

The photos are of the flowers Chris got me in celebration of my new job. His florist grew orchids in blue dyed water which turned the orchids a beautiful blue hue. Aren't they beautiful!