A Meeting with The Bobs

I am the type of person who works best when there is a plan. I like structure. I like knowing that after “A” comes “B” and after “B” comes “C”. It has been theorized that this is due to my being a middle child, or my being a product of divorced parents, or because I was raised by 2 people who are both extremely structured, but for whatever reason, I stress out immensely when I feel things are slipping out of my control.

The irony is that for someone who functions best in a controlled environment I have a serious tendency to throw myself into situations that are completely chaotic and random. I move across the country on a month’s notice. I switch jobs about every year. Heck, I even allow myself to be put into a situation where it’s 3am and I have to ask myself “Ok, now where am I going to sleep?”

But that is a discussion for a different posting, so I digress…

I have a meeting with my boss at 2pm today. It’s a very important meeting. It’s a follow-up meeting to a very important meeting we had 2 months ago. I have no idea how the meeting will go and the uncertainty is stressing me out. I have rehearsed what I am going to say and I have considered the thousands of different possibilities of what she might say, but in the back of my mind I fully understand that I do not know what is going to happen at 2pm today.

I am stressed.

Today is going to be a long day.